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Leadership and Love: A Journey of Growth

Recently, I had a conversation with a friend that sparked a deep realization in me: the beginning of adulthood is marked by the ability to make our own choices. That thought struck me profoundly. As a young adult, I realized that for most of my life, I hadn’t truly made independent decisions. Living under my parents’ roof, most of my choices were naturally influenced by their expectations, their values, and even their reactions. Without noticing it, I had shaped my actions to fit within their approval.

It wasn’t until I moved out that I was suddenly faced with the full weight of responsibility that comes with freedom. I began asking myself, “What do I really want? What motivates me? What do I love?” It led me down a path of self-discovery and deep introspection. And that’s when I realized something important: I’ve been gifted with a deep, divine ability to love.

This gift of love, however, hasn’t always been easy to manage. During my teenage years, it even brought me pain because I didn’t yet know how to handle it or set healthy boundaries. It was overwhelming, and without discipline, it was sometimes misdirected. Over time, and by God's grace, I began learning how to steward that love wisely. I understood it wasn’t meant to hurt me, but to serve a greater purpose.

As my relationship with God deepened, I felt called to leadership—specifically, to lead others toward Christ in love and humility. I said yes, out of obedience and devotion. Fueled by my love for organizing and planning, I started a WhatsApp group to gather young people around God’s Word. I initiated conversations in the group and in private messages. I was excited, hopeful, and full of vision.

But then reality hit. The group felt silent, almost frozen. No engagement. No responses. It felt like I was monologuing into a void, and frustration slowly crept in. I began doubting myself and the mission. But in the stillness, God reminded me: “This isn’t just about bringing people together. It’s about raising disciples who live changed lives and impact others.”

He showed me how to see others through His eyes. Instead of frustration, He taught me compassion. I began putting myself in their shoes, choosing to love them even when they didn’t respond. Just as Christ loves me—even when I fall short.

I also discovered the hidden layer of this calling: leadership isn’t just about hosting a weekly Bible study. It’s about walking alongside people through their highs and lows, their victories and struggles. It’s about follow-up, presence, and shared growth. It’s a commitment to know their spiritual state—not out of pressure, but out of love.

Most importantly, God showed me that this isn’t a one-time mission—it’s a journey. Some days will shine, others may feel heavy. But He promised, “If you keep Me at the center, I will walk with you through it all.”

As it is written in Isaiah 41:10 :
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand


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